Archive for January, 2008

it’s over.

Tuesday, January 29th, 2008

I’d never thought that I’d come to the day…
the day that i learned to dislike the same person i loved…
the same person who made me smile…
the same person who kisses me when im sad…
the same person who hugs me whenever i feel afraid…
the same person who made me believed that everythng was real…
the same person who set plans for us…
the same person i thought would love me forever…
he’s gone now…
along with him was the love i gave….
finally, it’s over, and i have moved on.

dance of life..

Thursday, January 24th, 2008

Dancersilhouette

There were
two hearts that met in a dance.  That moment was magical.  There was a
sweet song playing, there was harmony…and soon…love in the air.  They
fell in love and started building castles I their dreams and promised
forever with all certainty.  But, somewhere, in the midst of the fun,
they got lost in the dance, something went wrong, but they can never do
anything.  They were just drifting away, their fortress falling apart.
There were so many questions…but no one had an answer.

The music stopped…and there was silence…

When
we truly loved someone, we give our best and let that person see the
pureness of our intention.  But sometimes, that person makes us cry and
hurts us for the wrong reason.  That someone must have loved us, but he
has not loved us enough to make him stand for what he truly felt.

 

Now,
we are faced with the seemingly impossible task of forgetting.  We have
burdened ourselves long enough, but we still can’t get out of this
emotional trap.  Let us remember that the more we try to forget someone
we love…the more painful letting go will become…

 
Sometimes,
we never had to take that person out of our hearts at all…for he will
always be there…no matter how we drive him away…It isn’t his presence
that make this difficult.  It is our stubbornness to accept our destiny
that aligns forgetting next to impossible.  We keep a cold face but
deep in our hearts, there is still that lingering hope for   
reconciliation.  Somehow, we still believe that we can rekindle small
embers and relight the fire that once burned in our hearts.  These
thoughts give us hope… but also breed the seeds of loneliness and
despair.

 

The
only way to forget is to accept…and the only way to move on is to look
ahead…and let the footprints of the past…be blown by the wind of
time…only then can our hearts find a partner in the dance of life…and
hopefully…never get lost again…

purpose.SLASH.destiny

Thursday, January 24th, 2008

there are some questions that i don’t know where would i get the answers!.. whew..

what is the purpose of u being born?
what is da reason y god created us?
he can never tell…
he can never say…
we cannot hear his voice…
he can hear our voice…
we can talk to him through prayers…
he cant talk to us…
he can never show his face to us…
we can never meet him…
all in all….
he can never tell us what is our purpose here on earth

sometimes, we say we want to change da path of destiny…
da fate…
god has entrusted to us…
isnt it da same to say that we are destined to fight against fate he gave?
isnt it da same as god has entrusted to us to change our fate to walk to true destiny?
isnt it da same that we are all goin against destiny and fate to begin with?
i believe on the sayings that "Everything happens for a reason"
Yes
it is true! but sometimes, we can control the things that are happening
to us. get my point? i mean, if we accept the fact that we can control
it, we can, we can change our destiny…yes..it’s in our hands! it’s in
the matter of choice.. im sure some people don’t care bout this..haha!
but when the time comes that you will be having the same situation like
me, huh!goodluck! hehe.. you have to believe in yourself that all the
problems that you are encountering now will soon fade away.. and the
sun will shine again! ahaha.. lolz…

why hasnt god shown his face to us?
tell us what we are here for…
tell us why wad is our destiny…

"Destiny or fate is you yourselves can change"
and yet..we are given da fate ever since da day we were born…
us humans say we want to change our future…
change our destiny…
walk a different path of destiny…
but all we r doin was juz goin with…
the eternal flow of time…
our time arent long..and yet we strive to change our fate…
our destiny…
but what for?
we are meant to do dat ever since we are born…
what we can do is…
SOMETIMES we go along with the flow of time…
till time decide where we are destined. . . .

eee!i’m stuck.tsk!

Thursday, January 17th, 2008

when we’re stuck lovin someone, no matter h0w hard we try to f0rget that person,it’s just NOT ENOUGH… hmm..s0metyms, all we can do is stay away, and it does help a bit..but just for a while….because when that person sh0ws you even the SMALLEST gesture of affection, all our efforts of moving on GO DOWN the DRAIN..ahwww and again, I am ALL ALONE.with nothing else to say but.. "FUDGE!..i just fell for that again."

great love.

Tuesday, January 15th, 2008

Better_offi had a great love
before..however, i loved more..he also loved me, sometimes…..that’s
why we end up breaking up..i did fight for us, maybe he did too…ive
heard he has somebody else..i did panic and argued with him..y is it
always like that? i was the one who was being damaged more…while im
loveing him, the pain gets heavier and heavier…s0me would say that i
should bear all the pain, coz in love its really meant to be hurt..so i
stil did give up..but then, after several years of sacrificing, i let
go….why??hmm..coz all my life im hurting coz of him, im BETTER OFF
without him, i get used to live with him, but it’s time for me to love
myself, start a new without him even if its so hard for me…i know i
cand do away with him, my friends have supported me, til they were
tired of my replay stories, so i thought, nobody can help me except
myself…out feelings are self-inflicted anyway..the more i think of
him, the more im tied of him…so i just started to live for
myself..time heals..someday, i know i’ll be happy…someday……